I figured I should....

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When is the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

Yeah, I know that watching Akira do DDR isn't a new thing for me, but it IS a new thing when it's agaist people other than the local goons at the arcade, and these definitely weren't the local goons, but a breed of goon all their own, and yeah, I guess they were kinda good, but Akira rocked, and he definitely deserved that win, and I'm glad he did win, and it was well worth the trip to Osaka just for that right there.

That was yesterday. Today's kind of an "our own day" thing, and Ryo and I are going to be tourists--with Momoshiro's help. I guess Akira was still asleep, because he kind of showed up at breakfast, saw us looking at all these brochures, and decided to be a tour guide, although we're going to places he's never been before. Akira, how can you have spent so much time here and not known that there's a whole theme park built around arcades? Momoshiro knows now, by the way, so expect to be dragged there at some point. Anyway, we're going there, and to the zoo, as soon as Ryo hangs up on his father, which I hope is soon.

But yeah, Akira. You did good.

Such is life, I guess. I don't mind the quiet, really. It's a change of pace.

I think I'm going to take a break from studying. And I miss my boyfriend. Ryo, would you like to go on a date tonight?

Your Candy Heart Says "Get Real"

You're a bit of a cynic when it comes to love. You don't lose your head, and hardly anyone penetrates your heart. Your ideal Valentine's Day date: is all about the person you're seeing (with no mentions of v-day!) Your flirting style: honest and even slightly sarcastic What turns you off: romantic expectations and "greeting card" holidays Why you're hot: you don't just play hard to get - you are hard to get

One had to be right sooner or later. I mean, it doesn't reply to how I feel about Ryo, but about how I am in general? I think it's pretty good.

I completely forgot to say anything about the visit to Sieshun the other day. It's a really nice school, and I think...it could be a really good place for me. I'm still taking the exams for other places, too, but I really think I could definitely be happy there. The academics are far and above anything Fudomine offers, anyway. Not that that's hard to do, anyway. But it's made me start thinking...are other schools doing tours? Will they be public or privately arranged? I know I'd like to do that before things get too crazy.

I had a match with Oishi-san while we were there. He was an excellent player, and I have to say, it made me think. Shinji I go for the tennis team when I go to high school? I just wonder if I'll be lost in a sea of talent and never get to play. I could take up a new sport. I'm just not sure if I could give it up.

And back to the daily grind.

Is there anyone who wants to get out and do something this weekend? Ryo's father has declared this to be a "father/son" weekend, so I need to make myself scarce, and it's weird...I kind of want to spend time with people.

( This is happiness? )

I don't think I like this quiz. I mean, not many of these things really seem to be great indicators of happiness, and there are things that I think would add to my happiness that aren't even in here at all, and I know I'm happier than that right now, so really, this quiz is a load of bull and I have no idea why I'm posting it, but I might as well since I wasted my time doing it and all.

I'm tired. The weekend was funn of Ryo, and tennis, and Ryo AND tennis, on top of studying, and...yeah. I keep forgetting that I am not one of those people that is blessed with seemingly limitless stamina, and that sleeping is a good thing at times. I am also not one of those people who can ingest coffee like a food source, so I have to remember to eat, too. I think Ryo force-fed me last night. He's really cute when he's being a caretaker. And I can see the day coming where I will be giving him the same treatment. The good-ish thing about exams is that everyone freaks out leading up to and during them.

That being said, Ryo, I'm dragging you to the street courts after school. It'll be too cold soon, and I think we should use them while we can. If anyone else wants to come down and have your asses kicked, please do.

Akira, we do need to talk at some point, possibly more than waving to each other in the halls. I feel like I haven't talked to you in forever.

I think, for the first time in a long time, I actually enjoyed my birthday. It was a...different feeling, but I did like it.

Ryo took me out In his cat ears; we're probably lucky we actually went out to a couple clubs. It was...nice, to just dance and let out some of my demons with him.

And as for the assholes that tried to mess with us? They deserved everything they got. I wish Ryo hadn't gotten hit at all, but never let anyone say he's defenseless--he really can fight. And I have some bruises myself, my knuckles are a little scraped up, and I don't know if Ryo and I can ever go back to that place again...but it was more than worth it. I ought to thank the jerks--getting the adreanline flowing like that led to a very...inestesting night back home. And a long one, too.

I'm glad we didn't go to school today. I liked waking up slowly and just being with Ryo.

Maybe birthdays aren't too bad after all.....


( Private to Ryo. )

I thought about skipping school today. I really wanted to, since I know it won't be a good day, but I can't miss school, and I know it'll be a really hard day for Akira, and I know he's got Momoshiro to lean on, but he may need someone during the day, too, so I plan on being here for him, and then...well, I don't know. Ryo has plans for me, I just do't know what they are yet. I guess I'll be surprised.

Oh, and so you know. If you are not Ryo, or Akira, today, I am not talking to you. This really isn't a day to be messing with me.

Just got the word. On the third, we have to step down fron tennis club. Of course, we're not really leaving a club to step down from, but that's not really the point. I just...didn't want to have to do that, on that day. It'll be very...sad.

And it'll be high gear for entrance exams from here on out.

Hey, Ryo? Did you ever come up with a costume, and...could you help me with an idea? Since it's at the house, I guess I should dress up, too.

I have to say, I'm glad to be back in Tokyo. No offense to anyone in my room, you're all great, but...honestly, I was getting to the point where I was ready to jump out of my skin. I...just don't like being around people so constantly, and I was done long before that point. Thank, Momoshiro, for providing an excuse to just...get out.

I've actually spent today holed up in my room, away from everyone, even Ryo. He understands, though, that I needed to get my balance back.

I'm sort of sorry that we're missing New Orleans, but...yeah. Nobody would want to see that freakout. I hope someone's taking pictures!

Every time I do a tutoring session, I become more convinced of how, well, shafted we got at Fudomine. I at least have very few fears left that I won't be able to pass any entrance exam I decide to sit. Something good has come from this camp.

Drills the morning were actually fun. I like proving to myself that I don't trip over my own feet, and while I might not be as good as some of the people here at that, I still managed to surpass my own personal best, which is more than enough for me.

Capture the flag, though...I'm considering coming up with some excuse to not participate in this. I'm still feeling Sunday, and considering that all signs point to this being another stop in the Rikkai/Higa blood feud, I'm not sure I or my testicles want to be anywhere near this. I sympathize with them both, really. If someone jumped Akira, or Tachibana-san, I know I'd be in there beating the crap out of whoever dared try. (If someone hurt An-chan or Ryo, well, they'd just disappear.) I wouldn't be getting other people involved in an internal matter, though.

Ryo was saying he didn't feel like running around the woods in the cold after a flag, and he's still pretty pissed off about what happened during paintball. I think, maybe, I'll talk him into skipping this event and holing up in the onsen with me, instead.

And who is blasting the techno?

Paintball, fine, yes,. People get shot, that's the point. But why did people have to turn it into a grudge match? And since they just had to start going for the damn kill, then would it really be too damn much to ask that you check your targets before shooting them?!?!

Guess what? I'm not Rikkai or Higa "scum", and even if I were, I think shooting below the belt is a little cruel, but since I wasn't your target, then you really didn't need to be shooting me in the damn CROTCH!! Padding or not, it HURTS!!!

I don't want to look at it. Right now, I'm going to curl up with a cold pack, and my Rikkai/Higa voodoo dolls. And if it wasn't one of those packs, you better confess so I can come punch you in the balls.

When it comes to yesterday, all I have to say is, wow. I don't think I've ever seen doubles so...angry, before, and I've never really seen Ryo like that either. he was...words can't describe it, really.

After the tennis, yesterday, I started to get involved in the snow war, well, some snowballs got thrown at me and I had to throw them back, but then Ryo found me, and, well...we had a little war of our very own. I think we both won that one.

So I was limping a little, after. it was more than worth it.

I just finished my own match today, with Muromachi-san. I can see why he's Yamabuki's secret weapon, he's very good, but I still defeated him, it's easier to beat someone when your opponent can't move his arms. I think I'm closer to the new verson of Spot I've been working on, at least it's been road-tested fairly successfully. Ryo suggested I call it Spot 2.0, and I guess that will work, though I've never been big on naming my shots anyway, because as long as it works, why does it need a fancy name? In any case, I won today. Now I need to find Ryo so we can celebrate.

I didn't think I'd be up so late with the talent show, though it was rather amusing. I didn't know tennis players were so talented. It makes me wonder if Ryo and I cheated, but tennis really is our only talent, and I didn't have access to a guitar, so that limited options. Maybe the next time there's a talent show, I can play and Ryo can sing? I'm still surprised I took that point, though I think Ryo made up for it by making me not able to speak for awhile with his kiss. He's really very good at that.


And more tutoring today. It's going so well, that I really don't want to go back for Fudomine. I managed to convince my tutpr to go over with me exactly what I will need for Seishun and Hyoutei's entrance exams, so I feel a little better about that now. They will both be intense, but not impossible.

Alright...doubles involves...ummm...players that know how to work doubles. And as much as I love Ryo, he really isn't a doubles player. And my partner...well, yeah. Compared to him, I think Ryo is a champion-level player, and that's assuming he did more than bounce around the court anyway sreaming about koshimae or something, and what is that, not to mention that I just wasn't comfortable with him on general principle. We tried...I know we did, but....

Alright. With that, can Ryo and I be blamed for just stopping and making out on the court? I mean, it was definitely a lot more entertaining to us, and probably to other people as well, and it's been awhile since we could kiss like that, anyway.

Tutoring is completely spoiling me for Fudomine, and reinforcing that there's no way I could be happy at a public high school. I like learning and making progress too much.

And now I really want Ryo, but there's no privacy in this place to take him in.

The marathon was...long. I finished it, but I certainly didn't break any records. At least I wasn't one of the ones that straggled in last. Middle of the pack is fine with me, since I'm not exactly fond of running anyway.

The lecture...was every lecture either Tachibana-san or I have given to Akira all wrapped up and delivered by someone who knows the subject. Maybe he listened this time? Maybe the rest of us listened, too, but I doubt it, because no one I know is good at following their limits and all of that.

I do like the tutoring, though I think I was too tired to process a lot. I think...I'm going to curl up tonight with a book. And Ryo, at least until lights out.

I looked at the calendar for this week, and I don't know if I like what I'm seeing, because if I remember correctly, this was billed as a tennis camp, which in my mind meant we'd be doing things that officially involved tennis more often than just once, and if I had known that there would be so little tennis, I'm not sure I would've bothered coming, because I can get pickup games on the street courts without any problmes, and this just feels stupid and annoying to me, if I had wanted to go to one of thise "we love everybody" camps, I would've before this, and what I really want is some good competition right now, otherwise, I'm going to start wandering around challenging random people and probably being laughed at for daring to challenge them, but those people are probably too smug and stuck up to be of much interest anyway, because even when they lost, they'd be trying to blame it on something other than themselves, and I think I'm going to find Ryo now, because I'm seriously annoyed.

The only good thing about this camp so far has been the tutoring. It's doing things for me that I can't even describe. Today was the best session I've had yet. I have to remember to go to the library when I get home and look some things up.....

Correction. I'm going to find Ryo and an open court, because I need a good game of tennis.

And has anyone seen Akira lately?

I am really enjoying the tutoring here, I have to say. I feel like, for once, I'm not being held back, but I can actually go at my own pace, and for me, that makes the camp worth it. As did the s'mores chase, but that was cancelled out by the fact that it was sleeping in the cold.

I would still like to see some tennis, though, and I mean actual organized tennis-type activities, and not just pickup games when we're ready to snap.

And I think I'm going to go meet Ryo and go to the onsen now. It's something productive, and I miss my boyfriend.

I'm really starting to wonder exactly what about this tennis camp has to do with, well, tennis, because the last time I checked, pitching a tent in the snow has nothing to do with tennis, and why on eath are we going camping in this weather, do they want to give us all colds or pnumonia or something like that, because if we're all sick then we really can't play tennis, can we?

I actually enjoyed tutoring. It was good to be able to work at my own pace and not that of my class, and it was interesting to watch other people work and see how they learn, too.

I still wish Ryo was in my room, or I was in his room. I miss him at night.